I know I want to keep it, if nothing else for the sake of having this safe space for things, but I am not sure what exactly to do with it.
Ramble like before? Post about how I can't seem to manage making crocheted hats? Talk about the crazy antics of my grandkids or my cats? Maybe talk about Ki and my neice Lily and how they are doing in their Tae Kwon Do journey?
I feel lost but inspired to do something more...
For any of you that manage to notice and read this, have you ever come to that point? If so, what did you do with the feeling/need? :)
*Yes Ms. Shisa, I know I can always take your suggesting! I even considered doing it some years ago and came up with a pen name and everything! :D*
Toodles my lovelies!
Recently found out my mum passed away. We weren't close and there was so much going on when I was growing up that even though I tried, and I know she did in her own way, it just never happened. We were just starting to talk again over the last few years but it was still slow going.
Because of all this hurt and distance I am so confused and lost about my feelings in this matter. I'm crushed and lost but feel strange as well because I feel like I said goodbye to her a long time ago. Either way I am here because she chose to keep me as a teen mom, and for that I am ever grateful. No matter what, she was my mom and did the best she knew how to do. I just wish we'd have had a chance to get to know each other better and that I could have been able to find a way for her to see her great grandchildren.
Other things are just wonky as well. Maybe it's a part of where I am in my life. I guess we'll see as time goes on.
I have a lot to share I think... lol
Anyway, I miss what was and want to make it part of what is again. And I miss my friends here...
XOXO my lovelies
Life got crazy.. it stays crazy.. so much has happened..
Moving back to Oregon was a fun but difficult challenge, though I'm glad we did it. So much has happened to cause me and Ki a lot of stress.
I started going to school, and two grand babies were born in three months of each other. One was 5 weeks early.. my littlest granddaughter. But she's not only doing great, she's already gained enough weight to be 18lbs in the last 19 weeks!! :D She's a precious little dollbaby <3
I'm going to get back here properly to ramble, but I figured while i was here, I'd say hello.. I've missed our talks.. and our moments of silence too :)
Take care my lovelies
She leaned against the wall just outside the door and pulled out her small lap harp. She played it more like a lute, but no one seemed to mind all that much. She recalled a fighting tune her brothers had sung and plucked along absentmindedly as she watched the activity around her.
Deidra smiled as she passed and snuck into the room, her small ocelot Asuka creeping along behind her was all but invisible in the shadows. The goblins were going to get it; they just didn’t realize it yet.
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So, between the lovely shisaigas and my sister Becks, I thought well I might as well just TRY to write something. So I ran with it. And I did so easily. Maybe this is a good sign?
I wanted to share it with the world but I didn't know where to share it so my sweet bunny koshifuri said I should put it here... that maybe someone will read it. So, I think that's what I'll do from now on. Post them here. People will either see them or they won't, but at least I'm putting them out here. Most of the campaign ones will be fantasy things so if you have any questions about anything that's said, feel free to ask me.
I'll probably make a new tag for them too :)
Just a little update to say hello to everyone :D
So I’ve been up to pretty much nothing in the last few months. My access is wireless now so there are some days when it seems it’s all I can do to even stay online, let alone download anything, so I’ve gotten so behind on things it's absolutely insane! There is so much I want to watch!
Also being offline for more than two months didn’t help either. Fell SO far behind its almost criminal! So much I missed. Probably gonna take a lifetime to catch up at this point. You don’t realize until you are out of it for a few weeks how FAST fandom runs…
And if you aren’t on the train when it leaves, good luck catching up any time soon!
On a personal note, little Bowen is growing up so fast! He’s almost sitting up by himself, he rolls over and eats some solid food.. and he’s finally caught up to average size :D And he’s got the CUTEST little smile ever ^-^ He’s gonna grow up a handsome one he is! I’m one proud Mimzy <3
Got to hang out with a friend over spring break too! He and I had the most amazing adventure running around areas we didn’t know, eating food we’d couldn’t properly pronounce *or was that just me?* and attempting to get lost just because we could! :D Bunnies are the best random playtime buddies EVER. Just saying! :D( Me and Bunny~Collapse )
I guess I should also mention it was my first time drinking Takoyaki and Curry Ramune.. >.> probably the very last time as well! XD
Gonna start planting some veggies soon too :D Some tomatoes, cucumbers and some summer type squashes. Haven’t decided entirely yet on what all I’ll do but definitely Lemon Cucumbers and Cherry Tomatoes for sure :D
I have a feeling things in my life are about to get really interesting <3
Hope everyone is having a great spring so far! :D Mines been good minus a nasty bout with illness. But it’s getting better day by day lol UP UP UP from here :D
Peace and Love <3
I had access back a few weeks ago, but almost as soon as I got it back, well, we started to move. It was our choice this time, and I think its for the better all around but its still a HUGE undertaking! Seems like it will never end!
Other than that, we had some good times in the passed few months.. good, but bittersweet as well.. Our girls went back to Japan.. We miss Rumi and Shiori so much! They were awesome young women..
We meet our new students on either April 3rd or 4th.. we are so excited! My son and his wife will host this year as well.. they moved into our apartment when we moved out. I'm so proud of them!
My daughter in law had her baby safely.. he'll be 3 months this saturday.. my perfect little Bumblebee.. The pictures I had quick were not very good but I'm sharing them anyway <3
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He's getting so big! He's already eating cereal and the doctor said he's a bit stronger in his neck and shoulders than most babies his age :)
And right now, his favorite thing in the world other than mommy and his auntie Fiffy is the movie Pitch Perfect.. he'll fight to see the source of the singing <3
Other than that, I've recently come to realize I am crazy in something like love with a friend of mine... he's probably one of the most amazing men I've ever met in my life..I'm glad we're friends <3
Oh, and our car died today :( very not good! Now we have to try to find another one!
SO.. that's my minute ramble.. so much to do to catch up and it seems it'll never happen but I'm sure it will ^^
Hope everyones day is going well..I've missed you!
<3 You all!